Ducky Diaries: Everything else can wait.

Tuesday, April 10, 2012

Everything else can wait.

10 months today!  

Today, my little boy, turned 10 months old. 
And, he gave me the best gift ever.  He closed his little eyes and fell fast asleep against my chest.  This is something that rarely happens anymore.  Actually, I think it's been at least 3 months since the last time.   I'll take it.  

                                    It is a bittersweet thing for most mothers, that moment where cuddles become few and far between.  And snuggles turn into "No's" and tantrums.  It's a wonderful feeling to be spending time getting to know our children as little people, but it is hard to let go of our tiny little babies.   And even myself, I have trouble with this letting go thing.  Zachary is still unable to do so many things, such as crawl, sit unassisted for extended time, or cruise along furniture. However he is so fiercely independent, and I applaud that.  I help him do the things he cannot, and I help him with what he can do, when he allows me.    That's how it is, isn't it?   

                                   The feeling of being needed, but not wanted.   That's the only way I can describe it.  At this stage, our babies look back to make sure we are there, to be their safety nets, but then they look forward, and off they go, to do their own thing.   

                                    And as I look back at all the time we've had, 10 long months, really isn't that long, but it's long enough to erase anything that came before.  The exhausting 9 months of pregnancy I thought would never end, the 15 and a half hours of natural labor that I was sure was going to kill me.   It's all a blur now.   Just a big speedy blur that I can't seem to stay caught up with.

                                   Life now, is just the three of us in our little bubble of laughs, stress, laundry piling high,  and every day common life things.  It's wonderful, most days, exhausting others. I won't complain though because the last 10 months have been time well spent, and everything that doesn't get done, well, it can wait until tomorrow.  

  We've come such a long way from this moment.  

-Also, for anyone wondering,  Zachary has the "All clear" on his Prader Willi testing, so yay!  No P.W.S !  And we're waiting for his chromosome testing to come back.  If that all comes back clear, we're taking a break on blood-work testing and moving on to an M.R.I. to start looking for anything Neurological.    
- And, that awesome coupon I was bragging about in my last post, totally didn't get to use it.  It expired on the 7th.   :(     sad momma. 

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